I keep saying this, but it’s true. My mother is a motherfucking baddass. Why? Because she somehow managed to work, have 5 kids, and I don’t think she’s ever left the home (or even come downstairs) without looking amazing. I’m still new to all these mommy things, and let me tell you it’s given me a whole new appreciation for my mother. It’s not just the physical stuff of running around and keeping the baby happy, it’s the mental checklist and reminders going off nonstop. I’ve barely scratched the surface of everything my mom does/has done but damn I’m exhausted. Now I know why she was constantly nagging me. 😛
Baby Ava is 5 (nearly 6) weeks old. I can officially say that this is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through in my life. I’ve finally hit the point where I’ve stopped crying the nights that she doesn’t sleep. I’m slowly learning different things she needs/prefers it’s crazy. It truly makes me wonder what kind of personality she will have. I will say this little girl still brings a smile to my face and makes me glad we decided to start having kids.
We for sure want more kids, but not for another couple of years. I look at Ava and know that she needs a sibling…or 3. Hahaha! The first few weeks with Ava were difficult for Zach and me. We definitely our share of fights and just getting irritated with each other. After talking it out amongst ourselves and seeking advice from parents we moved past it. I know it’s not the end of the fights that come up while raising a child, but I feel much better.
I will say that I have a whole new level of respect for single parents and parents in general. I can’t imagine how someone raises children on their own, again I will say they are the real heroes of the world. And parents all the heartbreak that comes with having a child. I’m not there yet, but I look back at my childhood and realize I didn’t make things easy for my parents. I’m thankful for their strictness and I hope I’m half the parent my mother is. Well now I’m off to get this baby to bed since she’s a stubborn one.